Your Mum is Pregnant!

I'm writing this when you're already with us. You are currently lying on our couch together with your mother, both of you sleeping soundly. And, in your mother's case, with sound as she is snoring.

When she showed me the positive pregnancy test I couldn't believe my eyes. We were hoping for this moment for so long but I barely dared to believe it when I saw it. We had been trying for some time already though without luck and even some misfortune: your mother had a miscariage a few years back, shortly before her cancer diagnosis in 2022. Following said diagnosis, our hopes of becoming parents were greatly diminished. Alas, very much in the style of both your parents, you procrastinated until the last moment and showed up just before we gave up. And boy, oh boy, were we overjoyed!

Honestly, I barely dared for my euphoria to take hold just because I was so afraid of being disappointed. But with every day and every visit at the gynecologist we grew more convinced that you would actually join us. With these early visits to the gynecologist, we would get to see you via ultrasound. One of the first times, you looked like a Mandelbär (with which you should be familiar when reading this) and that's how you got that nickname. We would also always get a few pictures sent and I printed one of those picture series and still carry it with me. To say it's in a bad shape would be putting it nicely but it always felt like a connection to you.

Anyways, I would pester your Mum

Holidays in Italy.

When i first felt you in your Mum's belly.